eating habits

overall, i find myself as a very diet-conscious type of person. nope...i used to be one, but not anymore i guess. i dont remember when did i started to be so concern about my eating habit....tapi rassanya dari sekolah lagi. nak kata i really had a well managed and scheduled diet, takdelah. in fact i never had any formal course or consultation session or whatsoever on this matter. tapi aku create my own rules...when u dont get any professional advice and memandai sendiri, tu yang haru tu...

sebenarnya my eating principles were not that strict....takdelah hebat ala2 model atau org yang ada personal trainee tu....cuma dari dulu, aku paling pantang mandi lepas makan...kalau terpaksa sangat pun at least 1 hour. tu pun rasa guilty yang amatlah. lagi, dari dulu aku takut sangatlah minum coke ke pepsi ke atau bicarbonate drinks ni...sejak i read this article about a suvery made by a school in singapore which mentioned that if a person drinks a can of bicarbonate drink, he/she needs to run 4 round of 400 m punya track to compensate semula amount of sugar and fat in the body, aku memang jarang minum air gas....kalau pi mcD or kfc, ganti ngan air milo ke, fresh orange ke apa2 lah....bukan tak minum langsung tapi bila minum rasa guilty...kadang2 teringin sangat main minum je, sedap pulak tu especially kalau ada ais and masa tu tengah dahaga gila...kalau minum tu, rasanya macam celebration lah...

lagi, dulu kalau makan kek, krim mesti aku buang...apa, icing eh? mesti kaut abis, buang, sama ngan makan pizza, cheese kebanyakannya aku buang dari topping tu, cuma tinggalkan sikit nak bagi rasa..makan all fried food especially cekodok and goreng pisang yang involved deep frying, mesti tekap ngan tisu, wajib..kalau tak guilty habis...kalau masak, aku memang guna limited amount of oil...kadang2 tak guna langsung..masak sup semua memang tak pernah tumis or letak minyak....garam lagi satu isu, dulu mesti tawar, takutlah nak letak garam masa masak...santan pun sama, aku tak pernah kalau beli kelapa masa kat malaysia dulu sebijik, habis guna, mesti dibuang sebab end up pakai sikiiit sangat...sebab tu malas beli kelapa ke santan ke sebab pakai sikit sangat....ajinamoto lagilah, tak pernah beli...tak reti pun nak pakai macam mana...

tapi one thing yang aku takleh pantang, chocolate..tu memang makan sakan without rasa guilty...boleh pulak tu...tulah sebenarnya semuanya psychology..its all on your mind...i chose to think and felt that way about the things i mentioned above, so thats what i got....kalau nak ikutkan, yang makan kedai tu lagilah...ajinamoto nya berlambak, minyak goreng pulak entah recycle bape kali, kalau nasi ayam tu, memang all the chicken fat semata2 yang direbus...tapi tulah, bila makan kedai, i dont think about all these...kalau tak teruklah hidup kan....tu macam treat ourselves better lah..cuma nak buat semua tu sendiri kat diri sendiri yang tak sanggup....

nak kata aku slim melim and kurus gila taklah pulak..despite of the way i controlled my eating dulu, aku takdelah kurus sangat..cuma one thing yang really motivate me is, i know...and im sure if i didnt control at all, aku mesti teruk gila....mesti aku besar gila, aku sure about that...y? sebab i really love food, aku tak pernah rasa jemu ngan makanan, aku sentiasa berselera...aku sentiasa terasa nak makan, aku sentiasa terbayang food especially bila takde bende nak buat..kalau tengah busy, leka..memang tak ingat makan...sebab tu masa keje dulu, selalu, the first thing i eat is at 5 pm, lepas balik keje...kadang2 makanlah kalau pagi tu sempat brekafast ke apa...tapi kalau duk melanguk kat umah takde buat apa, im always craving for food...aku memang pemakan orangnya...suka makan, suka food....walaupun dah kenyang, i can always makan lagi dan lagi....

sebab tu aku terpaksa created my own rules..and its not about jadi kurus je, yang paling penting is utk being healthy...sekarang takut dengar macam2 penyakit....bagi orang lain takyah risau sangat rasanya sebab diaorg takde masalah macam aku...aku ni kalau nak diet senang gaklah, sebab aku jenis orang yang lambat lapar....tak makan ikut time (macam mesti lunch, mesti breakfast ke, thats not working for me)...and aku makan slow....kalau orang lain dah habis sepinggan aku baru bape suap..aku rasa aku dah makan bagai nak rak, kunyah laju gila, tapi still slower than org lain....

tapi masalahnya, aku lebih sanggup, how to say...bersusah, bersuffer, dari sekat makan...aku selalu cuba cari a solution in which u can loss weight without a need to berdiet....i dont like it...sebab tu masa keje dulu, aku sanggup berjogging, pusing bape round kat kawasan umah tu, pi gym, main badminton...daripada sekat makan....when it comes to food, there is no compromise for me....

tapi kat sini, things changed....slowly...but it changes...aku dah makan bende2 yang dulu tak makan sangat tanpa rasa guilty melampau....and masalah lagi satu kat sini, no exercise...so aku rasa sekarang aku dah naik...risau punyalah risau.....so tengoklah...theres not so many things u can do about it....u cant really changed the way things happen just like that...memang orang kata, boleh..u boleh ubah lifestyle whatever tapi easy said than done...so as for now, i will trryyy my very best to control selera sikit, banyakkan jalan masa summer ni and kalau boleh jangan beli banyak2 food and put in your kitchen cabinet because that will make things worse...apart from that, nothing much u can do...well, it is what it is...

the return of the updates

second and the last part of the updates

i got back from italy wednesday night. kebetulan, the next day was a public holiday in finland. dan seperti biasa, i decided to take my own break on friday so dapat rehat panjang. saturday, we went to world village festivals in helsinki. malam tu, we stayed a night at our friend's house. sepanjang malam tengok movie melayu...dari sutun 2, ke my favourite markonah tu cite lawak gila, ragam menantu (hawaw you?)...

after that week, pegi pula ke lappeenrenta for a 1 week course. yang paling besta, family ikut yabedabeduuu...we took a fast train (VR line) to lappeenrenta and the journey took around 2 and half hours. we got seats near to children section (ada mini playground and mini library). bising pulak sebab budak2 ni berteriak seolah2 main kat padang sekolah depa orang...

sampai kat train station, professor course menunggu..baik gila yang amat, very the loving and humble. kesian lak since she doesnt own a car, she fetched us with a cab. dahlah bill cab sampai 4o euro lebih..dia kata takpe, nanti dia boleh claim...sepatutnya ada masalah besar tentang apartment sebab ada misunderstanding about the 'pick up the key' process. pikir2 matilah kalau apa2, tersadai kami kat tasik depan universiti tu. ALhamdulillah prof tu dah settle semua...

course went great. ada student dari UK, australia, india, pakistan, malaysia (akulah tu), indonesia and france. yang french guys tu memang comel lotei, macam tak kena je aku tengok diaorg berdua sanggup belajar susah2 buat chem eng post grad lagi. with a look like that, boleh jadik model runaway dude...

balik dari lappeenrenta on friday afternoon, right after the course end. suppose balik saturday tapi tukar ticket sebab a few reasons. bagus gak sebab rupanya on saturday ada invitation ke umah ambassador. doa selamat. event started at 7.the food was great. for a small no of guests, the food was so damn banyak and sedap. masak sendiri lagi. hebat2.

next weeknya, sunday, we left for stockholm by cruise. a very big cruise. ada promotion tickets, with a reduction almost 100% (from 200 euro something to only 20 euro). the cruise is luxury, the room is fantastic, the facilities and shopping on the board was just great (tax free beb). and out stockholm, lawa, best, cheaper sikit dari finland tapi masa tak cukup. sampai2 je beli one day pass kat central station. amik train to the europe biggest outlet store. niat nak kejap je sebab masa tak cukup tapi paham2 jelah, aku tak boleh sangat tempat2 shopping ni. bought nike shoes, samsonite hand luggage, and adam's adidas ball. mula2 beria2 nak kan bola tu sampai nangis2, bila dah bayar, buat tak reti jee kat bola tu..waa kalaulah boleh redeem...lepas tu balik ke central st, amik metro ke muslim restaurant. murahlah kat sini. best bangat makanannya. pizza and lunch buffet..murah lak tu, termasuk side dishes and beverages.kenapalah kat tempat ku tiada sebegini rupa???...

we supposed to be on the cruise by latest pukul 4.15 pm. tapi 4.15, me and husband and son masih menebeng kat bus stop tunggu bus ke port.dahlah x tahu bus kul bape..nak nangis rasa. imagine macam2, kalau kena tinggal, bag kitaorg dalam bilik tu macam mana...nak tido mana etc...bus datang...tapi bus tu slow mak aii, siap kat satu stop tu dia berenti lepas tu duk berehat engan tangan kat kepala macam tengah sunbathing..woii, apa ko buat aa?? rasanya sebab dia tercepat so kena tunggu dulu kat stop tu be4 left...sampai je port, kami berlari ngan stroller, bag2 plastik..ada makcik tua tu pun dia rushing. rupanya dia pun nak naik kapal tu. tapi dia cool je..dia macam dah expert..jalan laju gila...lampu merah semua langgar, so kami ikt jelah dia...gate nak naik ke kapal utk our rooms dah tutup..waaa, memang last minute betul ni, so org kapal suruh naik ikut tingkat atas...akhirnya sampai..ALhamdulillah, on time bape minit pas tu kapal jalan....makcik tu kata dia dah biasa, dia memang selalu lambat...dia kata adam bagus lak, tengah org kelam kabut tu, dia cool ke dalam stroller dia..agaknya adam pun tahu risau kot....

2 minggu lepas, pi berkelah di suomenlennaaa island. naik ferry, ramai nya orang. memang cantik, the view, the sea, the everything. biasalah orang melayu, kalau berkelah, makanan je yang lebih, site vieweing tu buat ala kadar je..kalau omputih, bawak coke satu botol,lepas tu chips...kita,kalau boleh satu dapur tu nak bawak...nasib baik tak tenggelam ferry...

2 minggu ni, dah slow sikit xtvt..penat seh...cuaca bagus, panas...seronok, akhirnya after almost half a year sejuk, gelap...panas jugak...kawan lab aku cakap...kalau kat negara lain macam mediteranean ke mesti biasa eh cuaca gini, apsal kitaorg rasa macam nak mati??? tergelak aku, panas sangatlah kot pada diaorg..ok aa ni, best apa...

rasanya tak lama lagi nak habis dah summer, sebab waktu semayang pun dah semakin cepat..macam maghrib semua dah semakin cepat, isyak lak and subuh semakin lambat...kejap je rasa...takpelah, ni dah kira bersyukur lah ni merasa weather macam ni....kat lab lak macam padang jarak..maklumlah omputih amik cuti panjang...oleh kerana aku dah amik cuti panjang awaaal dari org lain, so padanlah muka, duk terperuk kat lab..tapi tak terasa sangat sebab kadang2 terasa nak pi mana2, boleh je amik short break....

ok gotta run, hari ni final world cup match. sedih ada sebab the next match will be the next 4 years...happy pun ada sebab husband aku kalau tak..paham2 jelah, all matches tengok. siap ada reminder, takut termiss any game...