memory...

visit cik kieli's diary for almost hundredth time today. no update...weii, cik kieli, bila nak update??? :)...click on SS's diary. and here i am, still in fornt of my pc after almost 2 hours (straight), reading her diary and chem eng online journal alternately. the problem is, i read the technical paper for 1 minute before i realized that i am again, reading SS diary for the next 15 minutes. it was fun reading her diary. congrats to u SS!...i've heard about SS from cik kieli almost 2 years ago (or more???) but i never had a chance to meet her. and now, after reading her diary (i've read all the entries by this afternoon), it seems to me that she is a very familiar person. not by the look (as i never met her before) but familiar in term of her 'kegila-gilaan'. when i read her diary, i feel like reading mine when i was in UK. biasalah kalau dah kat UK tu, sikit sebanyak xtvt2 harian tu are almost the same. especially when she mentioned about 'pegi pasar beli pisang'. dulu kat UK, samalah. asal gi pasal beli pisang. tak pun epal. mana taknya, the fruits there are so damn cheap compared to here. and that mixed emotion she had, i was experiencing it too when i was in uk. keep wondering, 'am i good enough and smart enough to do this???' it keeps bugging my mind especially time nak hantar report and assignment. i heard many people said..'ala, study kat UK senang je, sapa2 apply pun boleh masuk'...yes, u are rite in term of that kemasukan punya thing. i have to admit, UK universities memang business and money oriented. they are relying on the foreign students because we pay them a lot. alot means ALOT! however, part yang 'senang belajar' tu its not rite. ask anybody else who did their post grad there). i'm not talking about the undergrad. ask cik kieli or etc..these universities (especially the high ranked U - top 5), they are very strict in passing their students. they dont give a damn if you have to go back to your country without any cert. if u are not qualified to pass then thats it. you have to resit for the exam or etc. there's no mercy. i've learnt a lot when i studied there. and the experience, i just cant get it anywhere else. the fun, the challenge, the happy, the sad, the lonely moments that I experienced when i was there had turn me into a more mature person (at least, mature for myselflah, utk org lain maybe masih tak mature2 hehe)...and that 'rindu' feeling that i had to my mak, abah, sister and brothers and not to forget, my better half masa tu, it was killing me. i guess, since we are 'jauh di perantauan', so all those feelings asyik datang to us.

tapi semua tu tinggal kenangan, a wonderful memory that will never be forgotten...to SS, nice reading your diary. happy writing and u know what, nice shoe! ada sale tak masa tu?